I haven't used this journal in forever, but here goes.

I want to tell a certain person to stop. You are obsessed and you are giving this person, this evil person, power over your heart and your soul through your obsession. You say Meredith has become deeply important to you. If that is the case, please know that dedicating so much of your life to her killer is not what she would have wanted.

Your thoughts of her are beautiful, and I'm sure they are sincere, but you are chasing down a dark path when the light is in your lap. GMH is where he cannot hurt anyone again. Slowly things will rise to the surface and more people will find peace.

By your obsession with him and his crimes, you are giving him power, the kind of remaining power that notorious serial killers crave and RECEIVE, but never deserve.

Stop. Release. Let those who can be objective about it, who are not whole-heartedly emotionally invested in it take over now.

Spend that time in your soul with Mere, not the evil that took her from us.