Hi, I too lost a dear friend in a horrific way. I've been following this story from the beginning and so many of the feelings I had years ago when my friend died have resurfaced. Why? Because I could tell instantly that Meredith is very special. I've read your posts, can relate and feel all that you've shared. I'll keep following this and please know that I'm listening and that I care. I've had those days, those moments when you just want them to walk in the door. You want to "re-do" the day it happened and make it different. Just to hear their voice one more time....I know what it's like to look for them....as if hoping they will just one day walk back into your life. Share more about Meredith.....I'm listening. :)
Thank you for your thoughts. I am so sorry for your loss, and I hope you can come to feel solace in empathy and not merely pain from memory in these musings.
Thanks so much for the welcome:) There will always be the pain but I have seeked you out knowing there would be solace here. Hopefully for us both... in that I can be of comfort for you just knowing that a total stranger has come to love your friend..your Mere.....and that maybe I can bring an tiny bit of light to your day sometimes. My friend died 2 months before Meredith was born! Yep, a while ago. She was 24. I remember all those days even though at the time they were a blur. But I also felt very alone, even though we were all friends going through the loss. I often wondered if my other friends were feeling as "crazy" as I felt about it....about who did this to her....how it happened etc. I'm sure they were...but at the time I still felt alone...sick...enraged...and numb. Obviously years have gone by....women have lost their lives tragically.....but this time it stopped me in my tracks. And I'm still not moving on....and that's ok. It is. Because she was special...different...she truely had an impact.....as did my friend and that's why I just want you to know I'm here....I know...I really do. The world may keep spinning...but you want to shout to it.."wait....dammit...you just don't get it....you have no idea what this world has lost." I find trememdous solace here reading your memories...because I have ones of my own....that will forever be cherished. Thanks for welcoming me.
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Hi,
I too lost a dear friend in a horrific way. I've been following this story from the beginning and so many of the feelings I had years ago when my friend died have resurfaced. Why? Because I could tell instantly that Meredith is very special. I've read your posts, can relate and feel all that you've shared. I'll keep following this and please know that I'm listening and that I care. I've had those days, those moments when you just want them to walk in the door. You want to "re-do" the day it happened and make it different. Just to hear their voice one more time....I know what it's like to look for them....as if hoping they will just one day walk back into your life. Share more about Meredith.....I'm listening. :)
Thank you for your thoughts. I am so sorry for your loss, and I hope you can come to feel solace in empathy and not merely pain from memory in these musings.
Welcome.
Thanks so much for the welcome:) There will always be the pain but I have seeked you out knowing there would be solace here. Hopefully for us both... in that I can be of comfort for you just knowing that a total stranger has come to love your friend..your Mere.....and that maybe I can bring an tiny bit of light to your day sometimes. My friend died 2 months before Meredith was born! Yep, a while ago. She was 24. I remember all those days even though at the time they were a blur. But I also felt very alone, even though we were all friends going through the loss. I often wondered if my other friends were feeling as "crazy" as I felt about it....about who did this to her....how it happened etc. I'm sure they were...but at the time I still felt alone...sick...enraged...and numb. Obviously years have gone by....women have lost their lives tragically.....but this time it stopped me in my tracks. And I'm still not moving on....and that's ok. It is. Because she was special...different...she truely had an impact.....as did my friend and that's why I just want you to know I'm here....I know...I really do. The world may keep spinning...but you want to shout to it.."wait....dammit...you just don't get it....you have no idea what this world has lost." I find trememdous solace here reading your memories...because I have ones of my own....that will forever be cherished. Thanks for welcoming me.
Whoa mhechi...you're totally in my head. At least that's some reassurance that I'm not totlly losing my mind. :'(
Lola, I don't have your current email..can you drop me a line? I need to ask you something. Thanks!
Sean said, "As far as I'm concerned that girl wrote the book on survival. I'm proud of her." I agree. I thought you'd like to know. - Your Jen in TX
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