So I got on a downhill roll about two days ago, kept getting into these circular thoughts I keep thinking eventually I will get to talk to her again, and then reality slaps me...and then I think of it again...and reality again. Ugh, This culminated in me calling her voicemail for her phone, (which isn't disconnected yet) hearing her voice and leaving this looong ranty sobby message for...no one. But it helped. Then I called Stephen and had the best conversation I've had with Stephen in a while (He's been studying for his final med school exam, I've been a lump of cottage cheese...you know how it is) It was nice. I felt much better. I felt so much better that when I got hom and had a friend link me this, I was able to just smile wanly and say, "Mere (Who had her degree in French, for those unaware) would have found this completely hysterical" and move on with my day.
Hurray ;)
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I totally found this by accident, but I'm glad I did. I guess that's what happens when you google the hell out of someones name...which I shouldn't do...but I find myself doing anyway.
I'm glad to know I'm not alone in how I'm feeling. I wish I could stop crying...stop dreaming..stop thinking. I had a breakdown at a parent teacher conference today when the teacher said "I know this has been a rough month for Seth, and for you" Rough month...yeah, that would be an example of putting things lightly. So sorry Mr Teacher that my son forgets his assignments, and loses handouts. His first crush was recently abducted and murdered you see...
Hugs. Talk to me anytime you need to scream or cry or whatever...I need to do all those things I guess, but have no one to do them with up here in NC. And then, there's trying to keep my composure with the kiddos who are having a hard enough time. I'm sure you can relate... :*(
I'm so sorry, Kath. To see how its affecting the different children in her life is perhaps the toughest of all. Munch is being quite bizarre about it...saying nothing for days and then getting very morose and quiet and just saying a few words in 24 hours...and then back to normal.
I didn't realize how much Seth felt for her; crushes at his age can be very strong.
I will keep you all in my heart,
Chris
I've been thinking about your crew an awful lot. I know I feel, and I wasn't the close friend to her that you are. I absolutely adored her (like everyone else who ever met her!)...but I wasn't nearly as close.
Poor Munch. I'm glad we got to see him last week (wish we could have seen you and Blix too)...the boys all seemed to have a grand time. I saw Seth carrying Munch around the playground piggyback on more than one occasion.
Yes, Seth had a crush on Meredith...though he wouldn't admit it until recently, though I knew. Mamas know these things. :) She was often partnered with him in Kyukido because she was the most petite adult. And then she'd sit and listen to him ramble on and on about viedo games and pokemon and starwars, and pretend to be interested..bless her. She made him feel so special by doing that.
So it's been really hard on him. He told me he hated me right after she went missing when I told him he absolutley could not be part of the search party. *sigh* Of course adults see the logic in this, however a heartsick preteen will not. (He did forgive me later that day though)
But you know...I can't fathom anyone in the world more worthy of my baby's first crush than Mere. What can I say..the kid has really good taste. ;)
Well In know Mere thought highly o Seth. We had talked about all the kids at the school at various points, and we always noted what a polite little genius Seth is.
I'm glad the boys got to see one another; I know mine had a great time, and Munch adores Seth.
I'm sorry to hear about all the mix up and moves, but it will be nice to see you about again, and not just on the weekends :)
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